Read: Ephesians 4:30
How can a Christ-follower grieve the Holy Spirit? What sort of lifestyle brings sorrow to the Lord? Christian, the Lord owns you. He will restore your broken life if you ask Him to. But it requires repentance, a sorrowful confession of your sin, and then turning away from any sin. If you need help in this, seek it out. Make an appointment with your pastor or a Christian counselor.